There, I have said it. Pitful, isn't it?
I don't know why I feel this way.
I absolutely love being on our farm with my camera where it is quiet, isolated, and calm. I can breathe.
I love taking pictures of food on my counter. There I am free to climb on chairs, turn the lights on bright, move to a window - be creative.
When I "have an audience", I can't breathe. I want everything to go quickly and perfectly. I don't want to draw attention to myself. I find it difficult to be creative.
I really am not like this in other areas of my life.
I teach in front of people all the time. Sure, I get nervous, but in a good way.
I have been watching you fellow 365er's who take these cute pictures of your families at the park or the mall or the cupcake store. It has brought out a strange mix of envy and determination in me.
I want to get over my dislike of taking pictures in public places.
With that in mind, I took my camera with me on our family outing to Blue Coast Burrito this evening. And I used it to take some pictures.
Mind you I didn't stand on any tables or get ultra-creative, but I did take some pictures. That is a step for me.
If any of you have dealt with this fear, I would really enjoy hearing how you overcame it. Or maybe it would just be nice to know that I am not the only one...