Paul says that ministry is given.
I forget that and live my life sometimes as if ministry is a burden that I carry.
Not just ministry meaning paid, vocational work at the church building on the church budget for church people.
I mean living my life as a ministry of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Living the testimony that God is who He says He is.
I live that in a drudging shade of gray. Something I must do as opposed to something I am compelled to do.
The world that we live in is a shade of gray. It is the foreshadow of things to come. It is not the goal. It is not the end. This is not my home.
I long to live my life in vivid color. Not carrying the back-breaking load of daily life, but turning my chin towards the heaven and my focus towards the One who has given everything for me.
I think about Paul (when he was Saul) and how he had to go blind for a time to be able to truly see.
God, blind me to the things of this world and the burdens I carry, so that when I open my eyes I see only the vivid color of Your presence.
My precious Gran has macular degeneration. I have been on a quest to find things that help her see more clearly. I bought a light bulb yesterday called a "full spectrum" bulb.
God, I want to see the full spectrum in vivid color.